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Every week end I am happy for the reason that I can take rest without going to office. But really during the week end I literally feels bore what to do alone in the room or whom I should hang out.  Certainly I miss  a girl friend here.  Some times movies, sometimes friends , sometimes sleeping , cooking was my typical week end. But yesterday it was sort of different week end which made me mentally satisfied.  Accidentally I joined by company’s team to join an orphanage which is about 20km from pune. We started around at 10Am and reached there and joined with those children. The kind of children those are staying there are nomadic tribes where they dont have a home to stay and keeps moving everyday to one or the other village.  They were abandoned by their parents and they were brought and kept in the orphanage. We played some games with them in which I have fallen while running and got my right hand injured , but fortunately nothing happened. Later we have taken lunch with them.  I helped in serving food for the 100 people with my hands.  Some are very friendly and asked whether I had my lunch, some are very serious , some are arrogant, some demanded more food than I thought was enough. Donating money never gave me happiness when compared to the physical service I did.  Later there were few cultural programs and later each of us donated some amount of money to raise funds. One thing that was worth mentioning was bike ride on my pulsar which I drove on 80KMPH for the first time.  It was fantastic and I have fallen on the bed after coming home, no energy to get up and even take water. Finally, week end ended with Bachna e haseeno.  Hope I can do more this kind of social service on the week ends.

I got the news late and its bad. The news is that the professor “Randy Pausch” passed away on July 25th. You might be knowing well about this strong man, if you dont know he is the person who is fighting for death since 1.5 years and passed away 3 days back. The irony is that there is no proper treatments or surgeries to cure pancreatic cancer what he was suffering from around 2 years. He inspired the whole world with his “The Last Lecture” which can be found at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo , Please make time to watch. It was a 70 minutes video which talks about many things which are inspiring. He knows that he is going to die when he has delivering this lecture. The speech was entertaining and enlightening also. The video has become so popular in the world and it got millions of visits. It was made in to a book also. Only way the pancreatic cancer is cured by raising funds thereby increasing scope for research. If you go to his home page, he gave daily updates of his health condition. Finally the last two updates out of them one is regarding his death was updated by somebody who is close to him. He strongly fought his death but could not win over it.

Coming to technical side, his so many students who are working in google now and he is the consultant for google’s GUI design. He is the working in carnegie mellon university and founder of alice.org which teaches computer thru animation. The world has lost a genius, strong man at age of 48 years. May his soul rest in peace and I pray god to give strength to his wife and cute three little kids.

I have collected few inspiring words from his lecture. Here are they:

His first sentence in his speech was “If you had one last lecture to give before you die, what would it be? “

1. We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.
2 . when you’re screwing up and nobody’s saying anything to you anymore, that means they gave up.
3. when you’re pissed off at somebody and you’re angry at them, you just haven’t given them enough time.
4. Luck is truly where preparation meets opportunity.
5. Find the best in everybody. you might have to wait a long time, sometimes years, but people will show

you their good side. No one is all evil.

When he ask his football coach how are they going to practice without football. “Coach Graham said, right, how many men are on a football field at a time? Eleven on a team, twenty-two. Coach Graham said, all right,
and how many people are touching the football at any given time? One of them. And he said, right,
so we’re going to work on what those other twenty-one guys are doing.”

Yes, its to time to move on when things really dont work for you. At least those things supposed to happen if not the things you desire. If your damn waiting for the thing to happen and if it tests your patience? what to do? . Sometimes I feel it is the stupidity of me in handling the things. What I feel is philosophy is very nice to listen and help us getting up if you are fallen. But the fact is you cannot follow the same philosophy when you are put under test to the same situation. Sometimes I suspect whether philosophy has real meaning to it if it is not implemented properly. Forgetting about the philosophy for a while now, lets discuss about moving on. If you program your mind to something and the input is in such a fashion that it cannot be handled, just imagine what happens to a software program..it simply dumps. Similar thing happens to our mind if programmed. But how to program the mind in such a fashion that every situation is handled in switch case. We should make sure there shuld not be any while or for loops which makes you busy but end up doing nothing. if presence of them is inevitable dont forget to put a break statement till the program moves smoothly to exit. The policy I am following is to divert mind in different directions. Call a friend, chat with a friend…read some article, watch some pics. When I do these things literally I don’t feel that I am frustrated. When I tell my frustration or disappointment to someone..i fell relaxed after sometime. If I keep it to myself it gets more inside and starts hurting. No other way … its time to move.

Yesterday I read the book written by vithal kamat  titled “Idli, the orchid and the will power”. It was a story of  vithal kamat who aspire to become entrepreneur.  He explains his journey from his childhood  to entrepreneur. I would suggest people to read this book. Its just only not for entrepreneur aspirants but everybody who want to be a human. He emphasizes the good qualities, discipline that everyone shud inculcate to prove as a human being. We can see the fruits of his kindness, discipline in the later point of his orchid journey. One thing that surprised me was the value he gave to his father. He was taking suggestions from his father every time till his father was alive. There was a moment in his life where he has decided to commit suicide. But his comeback to establish orchid was fantastic and worth reading. I was emotional while reading his hard ship days and few scenes like where he seeks blessings from his mother to get a loan worth crores.

There are so many things I want to write here but I cannot do so. The must mention specialty of the hotel is that orchid is a ecotel eco friendly hotel.  There was one chapter in the book that explains how each and every part in the hotel was made. Its really tough to understand as there is so much science involved in it :-) .  Definitely environmental friendly hotel needs a lot of it of course. Their principle is  recycle, reuse everything.  Finally he proves that the business ideas and human values are equally important for an entrepreneur. After I read his book I can say that kamat deserves orchid. I will try to visit orchid if I go to mumbai next time definitely.

The days have changed. Once a fact that guys have much control and dominant over relationship with girls, but now, days have a different picture. Girls started to think and “its better to dump than getting dumped” was their tag line now. They have tuned their mindset according to current racy world. Now girls are in the same position whatever guys used to be in the past. They don’t care to date one more guy if they were not interested with the previous guy. The separation is initiated from the girl’s side if she is no longer happy. This is the same trend from a celebrity girl to a normal girl.  These days guys are being emotional and imbibing the qualities that girls used to possess.

Its no longer a surprise for me when super senior of my college asked me to inquire about a girl in some college before his engagement. Earlier girls or girl’s parents used to do the same job. In one my friends friend’s marriage alliance, the girl demanded salary slip. The guy was shocked and he would be expecting that in a different way from their parents. Girls have their own priorities and preferences as they realized that they are less to none and competing in every aspect. In one of my distant relatives alliance, girl rejected guy on spot (these things rarely happens in south. so its surprise).  When one of my friends is searching for a suitable girl in matrimony sites, almost every girl seeking bachelor settled in US, UK etc with CTC mentioned sometimes. Its a trend that one should not be surprised or shocked as it is going to prevalent across entire India very soon.

So guys….be careful. keep the momentum and make yourself fit in any situation.

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-A Poor Guy

(inspired by indiatimes article)

Have you tried anything new and made something special that makes you separate from the crowd. or Are you just part of mechanical life which prevents you from thinking and makes you work like a programmed system. If you are part of second category just go reading ahead..you might find this useful. If you are part of first category you are privileged to comment on this article.

I admit that I belong to second category. But I crave for doing something innovative. From my personal observation the little innovative things that you do might lead to very bigger things. Here are a few tips for the people I would like to give from my personal thoughts. People will have so many requirements in their daily life that starts from your bed rise to your night sleep. When you have some requirement you try to satisfy it or fit in with the existing stuff available that helps you to do so. But just think that “Is what you want to do is 100% fulfilled?” or you are trying to adjust yourself. This is the thin line which needs to be concentrated. If you can think at some point that some requirement of you is not satisfied with the available things in the world. Just think…now…how to satisfy them? It makes a lot of difference.

Krishna Bhagat who is the head of Google research Blore discovered google news out of his own requirement. Initially he wants to read interesting news about so many things from all the news sites available. If its me I will visit every news site available and read those news. But KB does in a different way. He has written his own program that aggregates the news. He dont know that it will become famous very soon after it came live.  At google people can spend 20% of their bandwidth outside to whatever they work. He did this and presented to their colleagues. It was applauded and landed as Google News. So guys if you have any requirement dont get convinced with what you do it to satisfy with the existing things available. Think differently and make sure that it gets accomplished fully. In the same way Linus Torvalds have started writing linux to satisfy his own needs. So many OSs exist at that time but he though differently. Later it became Linux and he started something called open source which became very popular that has sent ripples to commercial softwares.

The common idea that is prevailing across software minds is come up with a innovative site which attracts millions of users to it. If you can do it…you are done. A major software firm will acquire it and pay you loads of money. Just remind what happened to youtube. To do these things two types of innovation currently going on in www world. One is come up with something that aggregates the existing data on the web which is spread over millions of sites and project in the user friendly or user customizable way.  Really a user should appreciate that it really helps him. Somebody aggregated news and it became google news. Somebody aggregated events all over india it became eventsinindia.com. Somebody aggregated the flights availability..it became makemytrip.com. They are popular too. I can name number of sites here which became popular here.

The second way is to provide space to people to upload some kind of data on to it. Somebody uploaded videos it became youtube. Somebody photos..it became flickr. Somebody blogs….it became blogspot. This is quite costly initially as user has to get space for hosting his website. So is it appearing to you that innovation over web might be easy. It will be easy if you think differently. Apart from what is obvious you get ultimate satisfaction that you have achieved something worth to be achieved.

Wonder….what the title refer to. They refer to my life time aims and goals. I can honor myself saying that I am goalless fellow. Rather than saying less..I have more but not yet accomplished. I sometimes get confused by the way our life moves. Whether destiny decides or you are solely responsible. When I used to study my 5th standard, I am very much interested in playing cricket and imitating sachin . When somebody asks me “What do you want to become?” my answer was cricketer. More than batting, I was very much  in to spin bowling trying different kind of spins like off-break , leg-break etc. My interest was faded gradually as my father did not allowed me to play. Life went on like that for some days. For some days I remember I want to become cop. My mom is not interested as its a risky job (her personal opinion). I dropped that also. After few days, under movies influence, I want to become music director for sometime and choreographer for sometime. I used to make sounds on benches by hearing different tunes from the movies. I used to reproduce every tune I heard on benches, walls what not …or any wooden material. Father used to shout “stop your stupid noise”. I used to like dance very much. Hence the interest of becoming choreographer.

Whenver I see some dance good, I used practice that at my home. Ask me where? not on the floor but on the bed. I used to jump, scream, dance…fall..get up . Mom scolded..cot will break and your father will kill you. I started practising on the floor but its difficult to jump, fall and getup.  School got over. now I am in +2. My interest is now shifted to become IITian and software engineer. The main reason is that my brother-in-law is a software engineer and he is very popular in our family. The reason for becoming IITian is bcoz I heard that world will respect every IITian.  But my attempts to become IITian were not fruitful after +2. Now I am in to engineering and my goals are different. I am suddenly in to penning telugu lyrics unknowingly. I was very much interested and used to take active participation in poetry competitions. Now I want to become lyricist. I used to observe lyrics written by every telugu lyricist and tried to write on my own. Four years went on like this.

Now I moved to IIT for my masters. Hey I became IITian…:).  My goal is now to become a computer science researcher and work on cutting edge technology. Now I moved to job. Can any one guess whats my goal now? The goal is now not to keep any goals. I dont have any major goals except a few career oriented goals.

My goals are intermittent and inconsistent and irregular :(

While I am coming to the office, I came across a girl who is very beautiful. I wanna stop by her side and want to say “you are damn beautiful”. But I cannot as I am a stranger to her and it would be weird if you say so without any previous introduction.  I was just thinking about this and went on and on years back and there were really too many things which were untold and were stopped behind the tongue. Those words are not just about females but to people like father, boss, teacher, friend etc. Sometimes I would like to say ” I love you” to a pretty girl and sometimes ” you **** man” to my teacher. Sometimes “I cant do this and do whatever u want” to my father. The list goes on and on and my life will be at risk if I enumerate them here. I guess everyone will have certainly one like this which many not be expressed or untold due to fear, doubt etc etc.

I am sure even though a person can be dare and dynamic, even he might have these experiences and untold things that may not have come out of your mouth. But surprisingly after thinking deeper, I figured out sometimes things might work if that untold thing becomes a told thing. Also sometimes things might turn bad also. But personally I regret that I have so many untold things which still sleeping in my heart. So its ur decision to make it conveyed or not conveyed.

Yesterday me and my room mate navrose were talking all the crap in the world. Most of the times we does this when we have time. Sometimes we really talk about things which are very interesting, creative….etc. Suddenly our discussion went in to a book written by slash, a famous guitarist from Guns n Roses band. My room mate was very much interested in that book and he finally got that book. He was explaining about the few pages he read about slash and his childhood. Apparently slash was heroine addict and he is under medication for so many days. My room mate says, the famous rock band musicians came up with the songs and excellent lyrics when they were drunk or they have taken drugs. Creativity comes out of them when they were in such a state. I really agree to that and there were so many practical examples where people under the influence of those things get to do creative things (may be without their knowledge). even I heard there is a famous lyricist in south who pens amazing(this word is not enuf) songs was a chain smoker and smokes like anything while writing lyrics. My friend during my masters at IIT used to tell me that he can think in deep and he gets decent ideas when he smokes.

These things like alcohol, drugs, smoking might have contain something which wakes up creativity that is sleeping in us. Scientist and researchers …any answers??? .  This analysis is just by observation and I have not experienced myself probably as I am not creative :(   and I have not taken those doses .  Guys …lets be creative………….

I have observed a few things from the past few days. Those things gave me real happiness and ultimate satisfaction. You are wrong if you guess its love or *** or money. I have not got the same amount of satisfaction or soul fullfillness even after I have got what I have desired. Dont want to drag ……….the point I am making here is helping an unknown person gave me ultimate satisfaction. The unknown person must be badly in need of some help and if you give ur helping hand , its really great experience. The word unknown I elevated here because for known persons like friends, family, colleagues I have not got that much happiness. Helping known persons might include the expectations in return later. This might be one of the reasons why I could not satisfy.  (Of course this reason does not hold valid for me)
Few days after I bought my pulsar, I was eating sandwich on the road side around late evening. One very old man came pushing his auto and stopped near by my side. It looked like his diesel in auto got over. He is watching here and there not knowing what to do. He asked some persons to drop him to petrol bunk. People rejected because of his weird attire like lengthy beard, torn clothes…etc etc. When I completed my sandwich, he asked me can you get me to petrol bunk? I was skeptical initially but later I agreed as the petrol bunk is few distance away. I dropped him and waited for him till he fill the petrol in his bottle and again I dropped him back at the place where his auto was parked. He is very old men and I am very much pleased with the way he asked me initially and later felt very happy after I helped him to get his job done. I dont know I felt a different amount of happiness which I have not been experienced before.
It might be a small help but I have realized that helping other person will give you ultimate happiness. So buddies…keep helping…..

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